Defeat.

I am deeply saddened by my First Pre-board examination results. My grades in the four (4) subjects I took on the first day of the examination were awesome - all were in the line of 9. But the results of the other four (4) subjects I took on the second and last day of the exam were the opposite of the first four (4). They were in the lines of 6 and 7. After the checking of papers this morning, I got really really disappointed. It seems like my world is going to tear down into pieces again. Again! I am so extreme - basing on my results of a mixture of very high and very low ratings. What's wrong with me? What went wrong? That I don't know - the reason I still have to search. Analyze. Realize. And learn lessons from them. Argghhhh... I hate it. Really hate it. I think if I were to define the word depression, it would be VJ Ruado.

But, that's life I guess. I have to rise everytime I fall. Again. And again. Who can help me recover? I think I am the only person who can help myself rise. Recover. And try again. To be better than yesterday.

Defeat! I have to put my first pre-board defeat behind me and come back stronger than ever. That's what makes a TRUE CHAMPION, I guess, bouncing back from a painful defeat and proving that you have a heart for it.